..... to my friend. I blogged about the situation a couple of months ago. I won't rehash the whole things now, but today I got to say I final goodbye. Thank you for the apology, and I'm really truly glad that you are in a happy place. I wish you nothing but the world and all the good things that are in it. But that doesn't change how hurt I feel.
This experience has taught me a few things.
1) Just because someone hurts you, you shouldn't pull back from trusting others. I need to work harder at the friendships I have now more than ever. Because everytime one ends, that makes that ones you still have that much more precious.
2) I am worth it! I am worth good friendships. I should not sell myself short because I'm afraid of getting hurt. I can not settle for less. I need to find friends who will treat me as I deserve to be treated.
3) Friendship needs to be free. You need to give it freely with no need for gifts, or praise, or rewards. You ask nothing in return but friendship from the other person. At times it is hard, but in the end, you must love that person to the core of your heart.
4) Hating those that hurt you does no good. Even after everything, I cannot find it in my heart to hate this person. Even after being ignored and disposed of, I can't find a place for hate. It does not exist for me. I know that he thought he was doing what was right, and that's all anyone can really try to do. So be happy that you were given what you were given and move on. One day you will find a friend who truly deserves you.